On Thanksgiving I woke up thankful for all we have....we are truly blessed. As I got ready I strarted thinking about last year's Thanksgiving celebration, it was extra special because we had a baby on the way. Finally, the miracle we were waiting and praying for. We hadn't told many people, it was fun to have a little secret that only a few family and friends knew about. I was reminded of the family member that inquired if we were pregnant, and we didn't respond, but smiled. We announced at Christmas that we were expecting a baby in the summer. We were SO happy, Griffin included!
So, on Thanksgiving, the tears started streaming down my face, even though I was trying to stop them. I cried on and off on the way to the farm, I couldn't help myself, I tried. Grief hit and wasn't going to leave my side. We got to the farm and I laid down for a bit until I could get myself together. I received hugs and went on with our thanksgiving celebration...we do truly have a lot to be thankful for. Hours later I was holding our sweet niece that was born several weeks before our baby was to arrive. She fell asleep on my chest and I received great comfort from her. We're blessed to have such sweet nieces and nephews in our life to remind us of how good life is. Such precious little miracles that make even dark days bright!
I've found that life feels good and happy, but suddenly and unexpectedly grief and disappointment can sink in. I'm sure it's part of the healing process, and I am sure I will always feel grief because of what we've been through. But, the important thing is for us to live life so that our joy is our focus....and we learn to cope with our grief in the best way we can.